Working Hard.

I'd say I usually mean it in...
An overall sense.
But this time,
I think I'll say it about training.

Gym's been going well.
#GoodFeeling
I can see the progress.
But it's getting a bit ...
Hollow.
It now seems,
Just like something that...
I'm going to get done.

There's no explanations.
No motivation.
No inspiration.
No questions.

Maybe Nike's right.
Just do it.

You ever felt that?
Anywayz.

I saw some nice headphones.
Sony MDRAS30G.
Look em up.
They look a little special.
After hearing the quality,
of my mate's headphones,
which came for a bargain price.
Got me interested =P
It's either new headphones.
Or new iPod Shuffle.
Decisions, decisions.
#Firstworldproblems

BTW Listen to:
Flo Rida - Whistle
Calvin Harris ft. Ne-Yo - Let's Go
Bag Raiders - Shooting Stars
Chris Brown - Turn Up The Music

Hahaha, aights.
Still blue.
It's all still quiet.
I'm waiting.


Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo

What's going on?

Nothing Much.
Don't Care.
Don't think about it.
Don't really even know...
What's goin' on.

It just seems correct to act,
in a certain way.
So I do it. I'm not really...
Thinking.
So to speak.

It's moar like...
I'm doing what I think would...
hurt? no,
That's too harsh.
Maybe just a little bit of everything.

I hope starving's not an idea.
Starving is bad.
Don't do it because of me.
Don't do it because you think...
it's a healthy diet.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

When you're blue.
Remember.
Even the taste of ice cream...
The sweetness will overwhelm
your senses.
The coldness will freeze
your senses.
Now, not only are you down.
You're also uncomfortable.
And the ice cream is just another...
Reminder.
How sharing ice cream,
use to warm you up.


Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo

P.S. Imma start using TiE. See if I can set that trend =P
 TiE = Take it Easy

Things to do.

Now that those exams are done.
There now is a time of nothing.
Well, that's what we all tend to think.
Or want to think.

---

Before you think of anything else tho...
Think of one thing.
And one thing only.
THE AVENGERS.
WATCH IT.
ENJOY IT.
MARVEL AT IT.
(See what I did there? =P)
IT IS ABSOLUTELY AWESOME.
DO NOT MISS IT.
WAITING FOR A TORRENT...
WILL NOT DO IT JUSTICE!!!
Don't make a stupid-ass decision.

---

And during this time,
and to be honest, a little before too,
I've complied a list of things that...
I would say I need.
Majority turned out to be wants.
But since the term is used so...
Interchangeably these days.
I guess it's no harm saying either.
Right? =P

- Nike Free Runs.
-- Ray Ban Aviators
(Have not browsed yet LOL)
--- New Optical Glasses
(Ones that will not leave scars on my nose)
---- Moar sports shorts.
----- New pair of jeans.
------ Pair of casual shoes.
------- Ferrari Leather Gloves
-------- Ferrari Leather Jacket.

There.
Okay, maybe NOT the Ferrari items
Hahahaha,

But now I've realised.
I need a haircut moar than anything.
And just as I thought of that...

Tutorial Work due next week,
Anatomy assignment also due,
Biomechanics quiz the week after.

It's already week 8
Of the First semester.

But nonetheless,
I've not wasted my time...
Much...
I'll have a surprise for y'all soon.
Keep an eye out.

And...
I wish my babe well today in her exams!
: ) You studied hard bub. Kill it!


Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo

Addiction? Or Obsession?

Well.

There's this game.

http://www.foddy.net/Athletics.html

You decide.

Oh, the song was Misery - Maroon 5


Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo

Lying.

Thought about the title for a long time.
Spent most of the day thinking about that.
Is lying a gift? Or a curse?

Anyway, I'm really tired now
Nothing much I can blog.

~I am in misery,
There ain't no-body who can comfort me.

Guess the song.


Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo

Iron-y.

Dull days
Purposes present.
Purposes ignored.

Days slug on by
Everyday feels like an eternity
As I simply long for something so simple.
Yet seemingly moar...
Unattainable as each day passes.
The days literally feel like weeks.
And weeks, like years.
I'm blue.

Gym session's going well!
Hit the weights hard today.
Felt empty, but still had a driving force.
Concentration's the only thing lacking.
Doesn't help that it's very important.
So I'm here, typing away,
with no feeling in my last two digits
of my left hand.

Exam's coming up.
Anzac Day also.

I also found it, ironic.
Some things.

Enough from me.


Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo

Pitch Black.

Well, It's past midnight.
Lights off.
All black, everything.
It's literally pitch black.
But the screen on which I now type.

It's quiet.
I don't like noise.
But I don't like the silence of...
Knowing that only a lone pair of hands,
Types to a space of nothing.

I'm meant to be asleep.
I'm meant to be studying.
Sleeping on it,
So to speak.
Hahaha

Two big tests to knock down
Tomorrow.
Then to celebrate?
Whether pass or fail?
There's work.

Not for my man TSD tho.
That boy better be havin' his fun.
Makin' his special day special,
For his cookie =P
He knows what I mean.
Congratulations to you my brother.

Sleep soundly.
I'll protect you all from right here.
Rest easy.


Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo

It's okay?

No, it's fine.

I'll be aight, brother.

You take care now.

Aight. See you again soon.

The rain pushes it up a notch.

Raindrops sharply piercing anything it meets.

They make their way through the rain,

through the roads,

umbrella in hand,

hands shivering in the cold,

they smile and converse.

He paces.

Takes a look at the screen.

Still the same wallpaper staring up,

with those pretty eyes.

No response text.

They say there's a first time for everything.

Then today's a significant day.

First time I've been left to wait...

For someone to show up who never did.

Take it easy,

Mr. Jyamaigo

Interesting.

Found something that I thought...
Was quite intriguing.

You know how when you stay in water for too long?
And your fingers get wrinkly?

Turns out...
That might NOT be because...
Your fingers have absorbed the water...

Have a read:
http://www.nature.com/news/2011/110628/full/news.2011.388.html

Saw that on facebook,
While I was skimming through the memes.
LOL
The NBA memes are pretty funny too.

I'm bored.

A tear.
A smile.
Still adorable.
^__^


Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo

Used to know.

There was someone I use to know.
Who just seemed to know everything.
Sophisticated.
Classy.
Witty.
Intelligent.
Yet as naive as anyone could be.

It's like that.
I can truly say that I use to know someone...
Except when I say this.
I'm actually quite sure I really use to know...
Someone who was like that.
Someone who was smart enough,
Yet too scared to let you participate in anything,
That would even remotely put you in the path of...
Pain and risk.
Your pain, would be their pain.

And to see the change at present.
The distance shining through their eyes.
The look of avoidance instead of confrontation.
"No one can stop you if you want to do something."

Haha

Maybe the world has evolved,
And left me behind.


Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo

Another Night.

Thought I'd spend the night out,
As late as I could.
To a certain extent...
I did.
Trained my share at the gym
Ate my share of El Jannahs with friends
Travelled my share.
I made a surprise visit.
Simple visit to the person most dear to me.

I bought a coffee hot chocolate.
Coffee after late afternoon disturbs sleeping patterns.
Well. For most people at least.
So hot chocolate it was.
It was a cold night.
Hot chocolate warms you to your very soul,
as they say.

But that was not to be.
See...
That hot chocolate was not bought for myself.
It was bought for someone I cared for.

The reluctance of accepting a gift.
The assumed burden it brings.
The giver of the gift.

Whatever the reason.
What's done is done.

So that hot chocolate became...
The fastest consumed beverage of the night.

I'll ask first next time.


Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo

The Night Time.

I know a lot of people who like the night time.
I like the night time.
Or...
I use to anyway.
Don't get me wrong.
It's not all bad now.
I just don't like a big part of it now.
Because a big part of it is missing.

And now I don't like the night time.
I'm constantly in need of a distraction.
Be it study.
Be it reorganizing my work.
Be it planning to reorganize my work.
Be it look for a game to play.
(And I say this because I'm not a very big fan of games at all.)
And it always hits the moment where...
There's none of that.
Nothing to do.
Nothing to keep my distracted.
Nothing to keep me from thinking.

Everyone I know hates it when I think.
-I- hate it when I think.
Hence the search for distractions.

The night time's left me.
I'm hoping one day...
It'll come back...
And maybe I won't feel the need...
To look for a distraction.

Wishing upon a star seems ironic.


Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo

It ain't easy.

But we gotta make it work.

And we did.
Well, hopefully we did.
This one I'm still a bit taken back.
It'll take time to sink in.

As she told me.
It's always easier said than done.

But we have each other.
I thought that was enough.

~~~~~~~~~~~~

My mayne TSD.
Brother from another mother.
You got this, brother.
We all know you do.
And no matter how many times you gotta say it.
Those three words.
Just make sure you mean them when you say them.
Nothing makes it moar special than that. Aiite?

Mann, it HAS been a long time comin' aye?
Turns out the ninja in you is startin' to show =P
Don't get too azn on me though.
That's MY job hahaha


Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo

Just keep moving on...

Yay! Now Jyamaigo may be a sped, but he's my best friend of a sped. My brother of a sped. And his happiness means my happiness. So, my mucho macho brother man, I am tres happy for your kiester. Shove that in your French and stow it!

SMILE!

Take it easy,

lol jk, I'm not actually him. That's not my ending, jeez. Imma keep going.

Tell me can you fix me? What the freak is wrong with me? What's wrong with them? How do I win? Why am I even playing? I don't know. Let's have a one sided conversation. That sounds like fun. Yeah. Met a female dragon. I smoked that bitch out. Stuff a fire conversation and have a glass of water. That means I win.

Sometimes you just gotta....GO. All black everything. Story fades, door close. NEW DOOR OPEN. Lamborghini ones! Eventually. Gotta hustle to make it big. I guess that's why we all do what we do. That's the way it goes.

But I'm nervously counting down the days. Counting down the ways. Why am I rhyming tonight? Who cares? I gotta corkscrew swag? Swag school over, this is first CLASS. Shit. Twelve more days and it's official. Mr Sleepless himself woulda been in a dream for a year. Helluva long time. Not one second wasted. Not one second regretted. And shit, I gotta figure out how to say those three words for like the thousandth time and make it even more special than the last. Not an easy task. I only hope that I've done good.

Add the feelings, multiply the moments, subtract the setbacks. I feel like Nelly. Sometimes I really do wish I had wings and could fly up outta this place. Change the rules. Don't take the person outta the world, I'm gonna take the world from that person. It's in my hands now. Hope I don't drop it. Not butterfingers like Weezy, so it's ok.

Went AWOL today. Kinda needed it. Fresh air, the calm influence of no one but your own thoughts. Replaying the events, rushing through the crap ones, slow motion during the good. Apparently I was gone for a good two hours. People missed me. I guess I know who really cares.

Remaining M.I.A.,

The Sleepless Dreamer

A Real Smile.

The remnants of the streams of tears ran slowly down my cheeks.

She leaned in.
Held me close.
And she said,
I love you too.
I love you
I really do.
I love you.

A smile defied my tears.
She said it.
She said it.
And she said it to me.

hahaha =]


Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo

Do Whatever Makes You Happy.

It's only very casual and simple to say.
But think about it.
Maybe most people can.

Saying that to me though?
Really?
When you know exactly what I want?
When you know that I won't be able to...
No matter how hard I try?
Hahahaha

It's a beautiful morning.
Sun's out
Birds are singing
Everyone feels the relaxing touch of a public holiday.

But me?
I'm stuck in the depths of who knows what.
I need someone.
But they don't want me.

C'est La Vie.


Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo

Nothing.

I'm numb.


Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo

Work in Progress

That's me.
Progress I'm determined to get through.
Progress I can sort of see at the moment.
But ultimately to be marvelled at at it's peak.
Notice how I don't say it's end, or it's conclusion.
Simply because the progress won't be ending.

Basic Building Blocks.
Baby Steps.

Overburdened with the work I piled up.
Studying both things necessary and unnecessary.

But most importantly.
Thinking.


Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo

So what? No one cares.

Ur just...
Different

Well, I didn't use to be.
You use to smile and agree
You use to think and discuss with me
You use to not think so negatively about what I said
You use to think with me.
Rather than always against me.

But it's changed now.
I'm different.
No one no longer cares for what I say.
"You think too much"
"Wtf you on about?"
"Whatever man"
"You over-analyse."

It's a solid loneliness when you can only think things to yourself.
It's even worse when you've conformed though.
Because then you're happy. But only because the majority are.
You're no longer yourself.
And what they see as weird.
You also see as weird.

What they see as revolting and grotesque.
You see also.

And what they hate to the bone.
Naturally...
You will also hate.


Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo