Grrls and Boys. How CRAZY was the weather today? was like DAYUM. raining and keeping us grilling at 30+ degrees, was kinda a bit much for my senses. However, I believe every day has it's balance. And my baby grrl shifted the day to a landslide victory by just waving at me and smiling and allowing me to enjoy lunch with her. Y'all know, she already fine, but then she comes back from overseas, and she lookin' even MOAR finee ;P make this boy wonder how she does it. In tip top shape and heading back to work just a day after she back from overseas. Gotta give it to her, she my Miss Independent =P cool right? hahaha
Well, it was exactly one of those days, you know when it's raining horribly outside, pelting so hard at the windows you can't even hear yourself think or pelting down so hard on you coz ur trying to get to safe ground that it feels like its just beating you up while you run. But then you get a smile or text or whatever it may be, and you light right up. Smiling like an idiot now, nothing can get you now, you feel immune to the rain, you don't even need to look where you're going, you just know.
Then there's also the flip side, where the perfect weather and all just becomes either numbed by a shitty something that happened, it could be dropping ice cream coz you wanted to help someone out, or it could be that no one seems to have any time, and you just gotta be happy by urself (y'all know right? when y'all happy, you wanna let errybody know and you wanna share it) Then the perfect sun, and the perfectly drawn sky with clouds like they painted just pause, and it's all nothing but an incorrect background to the wrong situation. Like when you wanted to talk to someone, but just as you smile and open ur mouth simultaneously, that person just turns around at the same time and ur left with nothing but unspoken words.
It's especially like when you're about to give a kiss, and it's not much, but the other person just slightly moves to the side, and you're left chasing, but you don't want to feel like an idiot. So you're just there, lips all puckered up, with nothing but thin air to dry them off. It feels so shit. And yes, I've only very recently found out how it feels.
I heard that letting someone go and be free, would be the best way to show them you truly care for them. But i find that the moar you do that. The moar distance there is. And it's like a bridge you jsut continually build and build, hoping that one day itll be so strong that nothing can break it down, or get in the way. But what happens to a bridge that gets built too long? It gets too heavy for its own weight and just collapses in on itself. then you're left with hundreds and thousands of miles between. With nothing but thin air. Just like the kiss.
I wonder if too much thinking leads to bipolar disease. Coz seriously, if I had bipolar disease, I don't think anyone around me that knows me would notice. Coz yeah, I'm that strange already. Or maybe it's just chronic depression. Coz at least bipolar people get to feel similar amounts of sadness AND happiness.
Not feeling too good now. I'll post up again soon,
oh yeah, any of y'all figured out the cryptic from the previous post yet?
Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo
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