Wednesday, April 11, 2012

The Night Time.

I know a lot of people who like the night time.
I like the night time.
Or...
I use to anyway.
Don't get me wrong.
It's not all bad now.
I just don't like a big part of it now.
Because a big part of it is missing.

And now I don't like the night time.
I'm constantly in need of a distraction.
Be it study.
Be it reorganizing my work.
Be it planning to reorganize my work.
Be it look for a game to play.
(And I say this because I'm not a very big fan of games at all.)
And it always hits the moment where...
There's none of that.
Nothing to do.
Nothing to keep my distracted.
Nothing to keep me from thinking.

Everyone I know hates it when I think.
-I- hate it when I think.
Hence the search for distractions.

The night time's left me.
I'm hoping one day...
It'll come back...
And maybe I won't feel the need...
To look for a distraction.

Wishing upon a star seems ironic.


Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo

Monday, April 9, 2012

It ain't easy.

But we gotta make it work.

And we did.
Well, hopefully we did.
This one I'm still a bit taken back.
It'll take time to sink in.

As she told me.
It's always easier said than done.

But we have each other.
I thought that was enough.

~~~~~~~~~~~~

My mayne TSD.
Brother from another mother.
You got this, brother.
We all know you do.
And no matter how many times you gotta say it.
Those three words.
Just make sure you mean them when you say them.
Nothing makes it moar special than that. Aiite?

Mann, it HAS been a long time comin' aye?
Turns out the ninja in you is startin' to show =P
Don't get too azn on me though.
That's MY job hahaha


Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Just keep moving on...

Yay! Now Jyamaigo may be a sped, but he's my best friend of a sped. My brother of a sped. And his happiness means my happiness. So, my mucho macho brother man, I am tres happy for your kiester. Shove that in your French and stow it!

SMILE!

Take it easy,

lol jk, I'm not actually him. That's not my ending, jeez. Imma keep going.

Tell me can you fix me? What the freak is wrong with me? What's wrong with them? How do I win? Why am I even playing? I don't know. Let's have a one sided conversation. That sounds like fun. Yeah. Met a female dragon. I smoked that bitch out. Stuff a fire conversation and have a glass of water. That means I win.

Sometimes you just gotta....GO. All black everything. Story fades, door close. NEW DOOR OPEN. Lamborghini ones! Eventually. Gotta hustle to make it big. I guess that's why we all do what we do. That's the way it goes.

But I'm nervously counting down the days. Counting down the ways. Why am I rhyming tonight? Who cares? I gotta corkscrew swag? Swag school over, this is first CLASS. Shit. Twelve more days and it's official. Mr Sleepless himself woulda been in a dream for a year. Helluva long time. Not one second wasted. Not one second regretted. And shit, I gotta figure out how to say those three words for like the thousandth time and make it even more special than the last. Not an easy task. I only hope that I've done good.

Add the feelings, multiply the moments, subtract the setbacks. I feel like Nelly. Sometimes I really do wish I had wings and could fly up outta this place. Change the rules. Don't take the person outta the world, I'm gonna take the world from that person. It's in my hands now. Hope I don't drop it. Not butterfingers like Weezy, so it's ok.

Went AWOL today. Kinda needed it. Fresh air, the calm influence of no one but your own thoughts. Replaying the events, rushing through the crap ones, slow motion during the good. Apparently I was gone for a good two hours. People missed me. I guess I know who really cares.

Remaining M.I.A.,

The Sleepless Dreamer

A Real Smile.

The remnants of the streams of tears ran slowly down my cheeks.

She leaned in.
Held me close.
And she said,
I love you too.
I love you
I really do.
I love you.

A smile defied my tears.
She said it.
She said it.
And she said it to me.

hahaha =]


Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo

Friday, April 6, 2012

Do Whatever Makes You Happy.

It's only very casual and simple to say.
But think about it.
Maybe most people can.

Saying that to me though?
Really?
When you know exactly what I want?
When you know that I won't be able to...
No matter how hard I try?
Hahahaha

It's a beautiful morning.
Sun's out
Birds are singing
Everyone feels the relaxing touch of a public holiday.

But me?
I'm stuck in the depths of who knows what.
I need someone.
But they don't want me.

C'est La Vie.


Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Work in Progress

That's me.
Progress I'm determined to get through.
Progress I can sort of see at the moment.
But ultimately to be marvelled at at it's peak.
Notice how I don't say it's end, or it's conclusion.
Simply because the progress won't be ending.

Basic Building Blocks.
Baby Steps.

Overburdened with the work I piled up.
Studying both things necessary and unnecessary.

But most importantly.
Thinking.


Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo

Sunday, April 1, 2012

So what? No one cares.

Ur just...
Different

Well, I didn't use to be.
You use to smile and agree
You use to think and discuss with me
You use to not think so negatively about what I said
You use to think with me.
Rather than always against me.

But it's changed now.
I'm different.
No one no longer cares for what I say.
"You think too much"
"Wtf you on about?"
"Whatever man"
"You over-analyse."

It's a solid loneliness when you can only think things to yourself.
It's even worse when you've conformed though.
Because then you're happy. But only because the majority are.
You're no longer yourself.
And what they see as weird.
You also see as weird.

What they see as revolting and grotesque.
You see also.

And what they hate to the bone.
Naturally...
You will also hate.


Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo

Saturday, March 31, 2012

Moody

Cheer up bub~
I know you're moody~
But, it's not so bad!
You have a cute smile,
That brings warmth and joy!
So smile! ^_____^


Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

I'm not crazy

Problems arise.
Dilemmas established.

Both wanting what's assumed to be,
The right thing.

Take a step back,
Smile,
Don't overthink.

The thinking process is hard to control.
Usually it's a bell curve.
Starting low, going high,
It hits a certain point though.
Then It goes down and just keeps going down.
So in essence. It's a demented bell curve.

So don't think too much.
Think happy.
Think like we all use to.


Take it easy,
Mr. Jyamaigo